New Blog is up!

I'm not completely satisfied with it yet but it's up!

If you're interested email me at lylalou2@gmail.com

Or if you're my friend on 20something bloggers, I've already updated my profile with the new site.

See you there!!

Meet Nahla

She can be really cute when pieces of the couch aren't hanging out of her mouth.

It took longer than I thought to get my internet all set up. But I won the battle and I'm good to go now.

I'm still working on starting a new blog, I'm just not sure what I'm going to call it, whether I am going to use blogger again or try something new, all sorts of decisions-decisions.

Off to watch some hockey and play online poker now=)

Nahla is a Diva

My Internet came last week. Packed up in a neat little box. I tried not to but I couldn't help myself. I shook the box and asked "How do they fit the whole Internet in this tiny little box"? hehehehe.

I am sooo cheesy.

My new shiny apartment is finally starting to feel like home. But it's not so shiny or new anymore. It smells like puppy pee. I spent the entire weekend steam cleaning the carpets. It smells better but Nahla still has problems holding it when she gets excited. We threaten her with diapers but I don't think she understands. She looks up at me with those pretty brown eyes and I don't think she even realizes she just tinkled a little.

Nahla is the biggest cuddle bug in the world. She is happiest as close to my face as she can possibly curl up. It's adorable right now, but I'm worried she'll still try to curl up around my neck when she is full grown.

I still get a little bitter when someone who just a moment ago was fawning over my precious little girl does one of those snooty, quick intake of air, "Oh." when I tell them she is a pit bull. I have always believed that it isn't hardwired for dogs to be vicious, it's how you raise them. My Nahla is a sweet obedient girl and she is going to stay that way. Woman in the stupid jogging outfit with your fat ugly dog who gave me that snooty attitude, you can kiss my ass. Witch.

Ok, I feel better.

Oh, and your dog isn't really ugly. Just fat. Maybe you should get him a jogging outfit.

In other news.....I ordered a new laptop battery charger cord thingy and it should be here within the week. I had to put off getting the cord due to money getting a little tight. Between the move, and the puppy and everything else a laptop cord was pretty low on the priority list. So very soon I will be back to blogging at home, where I'm not constantly looking over my shoulder wondering if I'm going to get in trouble.
Now would be a very bad time to lose my job.
Nahla is very demanding with her shopping trips to Petco.

I have something else to tell everyone that's still around. I've decided to end this blog. I just don't feel it anymore. It's not where I am and I don't have the motivation to keep it going. This blog has helped me to get through everything this past year, but I don't think I need it anymore. I know I could just do a total blog makeover, but starting over with a fresh new blog just feels right.

I'll update as soon as I have everything all set. Hopefully it won't be long. I just need to wait for my laptop cord and somehow figure out how to get the Internet out of the cardboard box and into my computer. Stay tuned....

I am ALIVE!

And I got a puppy!!!!

And I moved!

And my bunny chewed through the power cord that charges my laptop and now I can't use it until I buy a new one!!

And I really shouldn't start so many sentences with the word 'And'. I don't think it's very proper. Or correct. But I don't really care, because I got a puppy!

Her name is Nala, and as soon as I get my laptop back up and running I will post lots of pictures.

Not having a laptop right now has been torture. Especially since we haven't set up our cable yet and have no TV.


If there is anybody still out there.....

I know it's been a while......

But I have a question. Need some advice. How soon is too soon to say the 'L' word to a new person? And what do you say if the other person says it, and you think he did it by accident, but then it happens a few more times and you don't know if pretending you didn't hear it is going to work much longer so you do the "haha you are so cute" and the quick change the subject to something else or the shhhhh I'm trying to hear the TV, what do you do then?

Poppins

I apologize in advance if the cheesiness of my blog starts to nauseate some of you. I feel like that kiddie song "If you're Happy and You know it" is constantly playing itself over and over in my head.


"If you're happy and you know it..... stomp your feet". stomp stomp.


I know it's only been a few weeks, and the first few weeks of a relationship you go through the 'honeymoon phase' but it just feels different than other honeymoon phases I've been in.


I've already adjusted to sleeping next to him in his bed.


He never has bad breath. Even in the morning. Weird. Good weird.

He's training for a marathon and runs 20+ miles every weekend. Last Saturday I biked 20 miles just so I could spend time with him. He was impressed I made it the whole way. So was I.

He always calls when he says he's going to. Sends me cute texts during the day while he's at work. He's told his family and all his friends about me.

He's practically perfect in every way.

I am very boring right now... but I'm not bored. Does that make sense? It's like, I dunno....quiet? Is quiet the right word? I have nothing to bitch about. No big worries or problems. I haven't even been drunk in a while. Does this get old after a while? Is it possible to be too perfect? Is this calm sense of contentment the calm before the storm? Am I going to get too comfortable and just when I've settled in and set my bags on the floor, the rugs is going to be snatched right from under me? Am I looking for something to worry about?

Benny...are you getting fat?

I can't tell if he's getting fat or just getting bigger, but he seems to have put on a little weight. It's my own fault...I feel bad leaving him alone while I go to work all day so I shower him with treats. I hope this isn't a reflection on how I plan to raise children.

I've decided to change my blog title, yay go me! It just didn't seem to fit anymore. I have been trying to come up with something that fits me but nothing has popped that I really like.

I was walking home from the bar the other night and I realized something. I am very happy right now. It's not just my new relationship, but it's everything. I have decided not to move to a different area next month. I still plan on leaving my current apartment, but am not moving with my current roomies to their new house. The only stress in my life right now is getting the nerve to tell them I won't be living with them. I feel terrible about it because I know they were planning on having the extra help with their mortgage, but a 2 hour commute(both ways) is just not something I want to do right now. Plus my new apartment is only a few blocks away from where I live now. I will still be able to walk to my favorite bars, and I will be only 2 blocks from Teach.

I miss my blond hair=(

Letter

To you:

Thank you for being so opposite what he was and so perfect. Thank you for being so available, so ready. The fact that you were ready to call me your girlfriend right away makes all my insecurities disappear. It makes it easier to be me. I feel so free with you. Free of all my doubts, my fears. The usual heavy baggage I have been dragging all over the place has been lost.

I hardly mention him to you. I never really think about him when we are together. It's just us and what we are going to do next. You inspire me to write letters to you, letters that you will never read. Letters that will only have the good stuff. I want to stop comparing you and him, but not because he will ever have an edge over you, but because just by doing it I am still thinking about him and that feels unfair to you.

People say we are going too fast. But the way I see it...we are going to end up in the same place, regardless of how fast or slow we go. We are either going to work, or we're going to fail. Personally I'd rather find out sooner than later which one it's going to be.

I want to start fresh with you. I want to be a better, nicer, happier person. I want to lose that cloud of negativity that's been following me around for the last year. I want him out of my life and I want to start a new one with you.